Reasons #987 and 989 I love Callie

From today's text messages:

For background knowledge: she has a bracelet that she wears every day with the bi colors (blue, pink, purple).  It used to be a black cord, but it was too big and annoying her so she went back and got a pink one.
Callie: Do you know why I got the pink bracelet? x
Me: Because the pink represents same sex attraction and you are 90% gay? x
Callie: You know me too well! :) x



Callie: We've almost been together 4 months now x
(No, 4 months is not long...but I can't remember a time before her)
Me: I know!!! Yay us :) x
Me: I'm so pathetic but I think you've officially become my second longest relationship
(arriving only a split second after I send mine)
Callie: Must be nearing your second longest relationship, isn't it? x
Me: LMFAO!!!!!!
Callie: PMSL
Me: Bitch :) x

A very complicated history

With permission from my beautiful Callie, I am going to write a bit about our very complicated relationship, and how we got to where we are now: exploring what I call a monogamous polyamorous relationship.  (More on that to come in a future post)  Now, let's start at the very beginning (as they say in The Sound of Music, it's a very good place to start).

It's Ours

Tonight I borrow from the lovely, talented Miss Taylor Swift.  When trying to describe how I feel, I've learned that sometimes others just say it better.   My relationship is complicated.  It's not something everyone understands.  Some people will judge.  But you know what?  FUCK them. (I would apologize for my language...but I'm not actually sorry at all)  It's mine, and it's hers, and that's all that matters.  It's ours.

Rhonda says...

"Hey you moron, remember when you used to play The Sims?  All your characters were lesbians!  They totally flirted with the chick Sims, to the point where the pretty little lady Sims would get annoyed by your weirdness because you kept trying to kiss them! HOW DID YOU NOT KNOW YOU WERE GAY?!?"

Yes, it's true.  Rhonda was in there, trying to get out and live vicariously through my Sims characters.  Flirting, kissing, even "woohooing" with the other girl Sims.  One of my characters even managed to marry.  I lost interest in the game and quit playing before they could adopt though.  

Okay Rhonda, I get it. 

Check label for handling instructions

This is something I've really struggled with: labels.  Are they necessary?  Are they changeable?  Does how I identify change who I am?  Does my label tell me who I am?  Am I bi? Am I gay? Am I just not straight?  Does it matter?

Heartbroken

Will write again soon (maybe) when I'm not so heartbroken.


I love you Callie, to your star and back, always and forever.  Please be happy. ♥

6 monthiversary

Today marks 6 months since I first admitted to myself that I had an attraction to women.  6 months since Rhonda finally got loose.  6 months since my life changed forever.  6 months since I started my journey to self-acceptance.  Happy 6 monthiversary to me.