Struggles

Callie and I both have our struggles.  We come from such different situations.  I have never had that lifelong bond, which makes it difficult to understand sometimes why her love for me just isn't enough.  She's been with the same man her entire adult life (and then some) - so sometimes she doesn't get where I'm coming from.

We both struggle with feeling sometimes like this is an affair (even though her husband is aware and "ok" with it) - something we can't talk about, something everyone will judge.

Exploring polyamory as a monogamous "single"

When I first met Callie, I knew that our relationship would be unique, and unlike anything I had ever expected.  She was married, I was single.  That was never going to change.  We spent our days talking about how we would make it work.  Since she lives in England and I live in America, maybe we would be content to talk on the phone and visit each other a few times a year.  Maybe her husband could set me up with an understanding, good looking friend so I could move to England, marry, and have a beautiful girlfriend on the side.

But then everything changed.  Our feelings were FAR too strong to ever be a once or twice a year kind of thing.  As you can see, we've had a very complicated history and struggled quite a bit with how to make our relationship work.  We've tried to be apart, but discovered we just can't manage.  So now here we are, exploring a poly relationship.  

A very complicated history

With permission from my beautiful Callie, I am going to write a bit about our very complicated relationship, and how we got to where we are now: exploring what I call a monogamous polyamorous relationship.  (More on that to come in a future post)  Now, let's start at the very beginning (as they say in The Sound of Music, it's a very good place to start).